Today was a long run saga
Tiring and boring – drawn out
Filled with remembered redoings
Déjà vu and déjà doubt.
It seems that for every step forward
I am sliding another three back
Further from help that most friendships
Lived at a distance generally lack.
So much fear when trying to prove yourself
And standing alone you fail
Though somebody relies on your succeeding –
Not being the cautionary tale.
That further separates and isolates you
So you take all jibes on the chin
Til you know you need to reconnect.
You know you must join in..